Happy New Year indeed.
This is, of course, the time where you will find New Year’s Resolutions on minds and blogs. There will be lots of entries on how time will be used to lose weight, quit smoking, get organized and be more happier than the previous year. This time writers will set many goals: this year I will write that book. This year, I’ll write five pages every day. This year, I will become the writer that I have envisioned myself to be!
Around this time last year, I wrote what I felt my writing goals would be. It was the second time that I did that, and I felt pretty good when I looked back at the previous year and saw all the things I accomplished. I have yet to pull up my 2007 goals. I have yet to make goals for 2008.
I have yet to figure out what I’m going to be doing tomorrow.
I’m currently writing this after a hectic month of hosting relatives, finding realtors, and scrubbing down a house to sell. Trying to write during that time was like knowingly going in to get a root canal, without any anesthetic. I couldn’t concentrate so well. I spent many days working on a single scene, staring at it over and over, writing and rewriting…until I realized that I was in no state of mind to write. Heck, my mind’s wandering even as I’m trying to hash out this blog entry.
But there were days when I felt so off-kilter, so unbalanced, that I had to sit and write anything. Journaling. Freewriting. Handwriting the lyrics to a song. Sometimes, I only had five minutes to write for the whole day. And yet, strangely, when I finished writing, everything felt *right* again. Even that tiny chunk of time would bring the world back into focus again. I felt like my feet were back on solid ground. And I decided, you know what? Screw it. So I’m not working on my story. I think I’ll just write for fun. So I did that for some days.
And then, one day, I get the urge to work on the story. After the past failure, I didn’t really want to (not to mention that it was a couple of days before Christmas), but I decided, eh, why not, so I worked on it. I worked on it Christmas day. I worked on it day after Christmas. And that scene came out perfect.
At this moment, I’m playing my writing schedule by ear because that’s how my life is at the moment. I know that once we get settled in our new place, then I can get a better sense of the future. Then I’ll be able to plan, to set goals, to figure out what I need to do.
In the meantime, I’ll keep on writing. That’s one thing I can see myself doing in 2008.